I know love. But I've never known a love like this. The shear bliss of writing. Even when he makes me angry or shakes my confidence a bit, I love writing. He's one beautiful being.
I'm sitting up here in my room with Maluma playing and a big cheesy smile on my face. No... bae(s) have not texted. No... Shonda Rhimes has not summoned me to work in her writers room (yet). No, I have not finished the thriller play I told you I'd be working on. But I had a reading and it changed my entire life.
Maybe I'm being overly dramatic, but everyone who knows me, knows that I'm overly dramatic. So, as this J. Balvin song plays, and before the high fades away, I will tell you about this reading.
My parents and I drove to Austin last Sunday for reading of my new play called Delivery hosted by Scriptworks. I was nervous. Partially because this was Scriptworks and partially because the actors that Christi Moore cast were professionals. I didn't want to "waste" their time.
I called friends and messaged them to see if they were still coming. I knew that bringing something into the world was scary and I needed that support. I thought only a few people were showing up but so many friends and colleagues that I worked with in Austin came. I felt loved.
Delivery was about to be "delivered" into the universe. I found my nerves rolling away after the first scene. Hearing the world of Mani, Murdr and Javier come alive made me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside. Here was a snapshot of the world that my students inhabit. Here was a snapshot of the world that my community inhabits. Here was a snapshot of the world I inhabit. No, it was not autobiographical, but it is inspired by realness.
The actors really put their all into the roles. They made the characters come alive and their chemistry was crazy. I had the opportunity to see one of my friends and biggest supporters Micalah Nobles slay on stage. I also got to work with the super fabulous Lori Navarrete again (she was in The Stories of Us). I loved that Javier, Murdr and Mani were played by actors who in some way shared the identities of my characters.
MURDR - Christopher Alvarenga
JAVIER - Nasir Villanueva
MANI - Micailah Nobles
MAMA - Lori Navarrete
MS. TOLIVAR - Hayley Jeanne Armstrong
Look them up. They are dope.
The feedback was real. As always, I am learning to take what I need and let the rest be. I'm building my own craft not following a pre-order manual called What it takes to be a dope Negra-Americana Writer. Growing into the writer that I want to be will take time, sacrifice and most importantly love...lots of it. That's the main theme in all my work. Love. Even if it comes through as anger or regret, at the core is love.
I just want to give a big thanks to everyone who came out to see the reading of Delivery. It meant so much to me. Thank you Christi Moore and all the Scriptworks family. Thank God, my family and friends. This journey is real and I'm here for it.